Budaoweng

是谁狂妄地占据我的心
不让我有一丝的空隙
天天相见却无时不思念
夜夜相依却留下哭泣的你是你再度回到我的身边
混乱我原有的平静
不得不说出我的思绪
结局依旧是分离在激情过后我分析我自己
竟是不敢告诉你依然爱你
在激情过后我空虚不已
分离只是为了让你回忆

Out of a sudden remember this old song.

Ya, what you left behind are the memories that will linger on my mind for life. I don’t understand why you have to stir me up when I have already settle down.

The passion you gave, you took back.

离开你什么事都难一点
你走了我住在雨里面

你让我的软弱陪伴你的自由

当我们擦身而过那短短一秒钟
都明白什么都变了
一转身谁能把感慨抛在脑后
在事过境迁以后
这感情就算曾经刻骨且铭心过
过去了又改变什么

我不难过了甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只活在记忆里头
甚至原谅你的残忍理由
浓情爱恋都已陌生了

当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人
我已是陌生人了

when it actually started? i know. the closeness and the bond has long gone.  we have different priorities in life and we heading different directions all this while.  you can never come into my world nor you allow me to enter yours. what has become of us and i can only conclude that our fate ahs ended.

i said i wanted some time to cool off.  longer time.

this is because what we are doing now is killing one another. at least i feel it this way

i know i can’t let go cos you are too important to me than myself. and wanted to carry on.  just that i wanted to find a best way for us. i wanted to be fair to you and wanna make sure i do not hurt you anymore. can you do the same to me? would you or this has never been bothering you?

time is all i needed.

but how long? i don’t know. will i change and give in? no.

one thing i am sure is the care will stay. the worry will remain. the love for you will never die.

can you wait for me and me alone only?

our communications is getting from bad to worst. i do not know how we come to this stage. whatever i said or do it just very eye sore to you and irks you like shit. you do not listen to what i said anymore and really doubt my intention. i do care and worry and will always be. this is because i love you, silly. it hurts to see us like that. i really need to re-position myself again where do i stand in your heart. your resentment is building and you are gonna thrash it out with me.

i can only conclude, we really cannot .

you need me when you need me. other than that i have to be invisible. i can only know what you want me to know and nothing much nothing less. i can only care to a minimum over that is overboard and you will retaliate. i cannot worry about you because you think i think too much and link stories. i cant sms or call you because that is not trust you.

what can i do?

 i still want us.

好久不見

熟悉的那一条街
只是没了你的画面
我们回不到那天

你会不会忽然的出现

我多么想和你见一面
看看你最近改变
不再去说从前只是寒喧
对你说一句只是说一句
好久不见

Really, didn’t see you for very long le?

Do you miss me?

I don’t think so.

You never miss me at all.

I know, I know.

你是自由的

你心是灰色的

她是永远的

 
我是附属的
我是错误的

我是透明的

The little sweet sms you sent me really make my day.

Can you also be so sweet?

Can you always be so nice?

Can you ?

Thanks for your recommendation.

This song is for you.

BTW I don’t want to be your boss and I can never be your hero.

I just want to be your gege.

Can?

傻傻看你
只要和你在一起

This MV I posted before. 

That time and now all about whether to stay or leave.

Should we 在一起as in still together and I not leave. I don’t  want to frankly. I can’t bear to but why the pain and hurt getting worst and I still can’t decide?

This one sided thingy is driving me mad.

Do you really understand what I am going through?

Do you really know that you been constantly hurting me?

Do you realised that I have lost weight lost hair and been very depressed and listless?

Where did your heart go?

有没有人曾告诉你我很爱你

有没有曾在你日记里哭泣

有没有人曾告诉你我很在意

Do you know?