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Hello everyone,
Thanks for reading my posts and frequent visit to my blog. Thanks also for your comments though majority of it I didn’t approve but I still kept it.
However, please do not jump into conclusion or comment things that you are not sure or don’t even know about it. I have friends walking up to me asking me questions when they themselves don’t even read my blog!!! So hush hush. Really nothing ain’t that grand to spread.
I am doing this to protect that particular person I loved whole heartedly, and that is my didi. He is an innocent party and whatever I wrote were all my thoughts and feel. He don’t know. In fact he don’t read my blog.
We happen to be very close and I insisted that he be my didi. Nothing much nothing less and so please do not try and read in between the lines. I know what I wrote could be very emo, very “relationship” type of issue, problem, but hey thats me. It has got nothing to do with him.
So, he is not gay and yes, we are not a couple and I am not the jilted one.
He is just my beloved didi that I love whole heartedly.
Envy? Jealous?
Be my guest.
Thank you.
Budaoweng aka didi de only gege.
Filed under: No Regrets
黑暗中静静搂紧自己
孤单有谁明白
难过懒得再去管
泪要不要流下来
我也只好默默啃蚀寂寞
留着痛灌溉
Miss you day and night and even when I am with you
This love to you is unconditional, trust me.
I just hope you be happie always even when i am not around.
We had cleared several mis understanding and I really hope we can continue being so understanding and feel for one another more than last time. To you I may have not done a good job last time but to me, I did just that the methods were wrong and expectations were different. Our relationship is very new to you and you might not know how to handle . I know you didn’t give up cos you know I was real and truthful and very serious about us. In fact I do not know how to handle too.
Now that you are in a relationship you have to put in more time and effort and its difficult to juggle your time, I promise I will not complain!! I am ok. Cos this relationship I believe is getting stronger. I just feel that now we have somehow have a better understanding le so I believe things won’t be so complicated. Though I said all this but hey somewhat I feel that we gone through so much but now I have to be even more understanding and accommodating cos your time with me will be very little and I don’t think you have the heart and time to have a good Herat talk with me. That I will use time to make myself accept it. In fact, I believe its only right to share most important thing with your girlfriend.
I know you need alot of love and the kind of love i give might not be the one you need. But you can feel it I am sure.
I am lucky in the sense that I know quite a fair bit on things about you and glad that you shared it with me. please do not stop as you did stop for many times le. In fact most of the things I actually heard from people around you.
I am not jealous, I am happie you are in a relationship that you found someone whom you can love back. However, somehow or other I feel lost. This is so cos I know you won’t have time for me le.
I do not know how long we gonna last, I just hope it won’t end. At least not so soon or even if we have to end it, it should be a peaceful one without grudges and hatred but with good fond memories.
Just want to assure you, rain or shine, I am always here for you, didi.
Season change people change, I won’t change. You know that.
Budaoweng is dying: 24 days left.
